Relationship . Marriage

What kind of man am I looking towards for a relationship?

A devoted Christian?
Fear God?
Pastor? (haha… scary but why not? I don’t see anything scary in pastors)
Taller than me?
Handsome? (good looking)
Musician/singer?
Love me? (love is a big word to me)
Bla…bla..bla…

I still remember there was once during the altar call a pastor’s wife told me that it’s possible for me to be a pastor’s wife like her. Guess what… I was shocked. How can it be? So I assumed that as a joke to myself. Forget about things in the list above. Yes, it’s impossible as in I have never had someone like that. But I have never doubt that I will have a man like that. What is so impossible? Nothing! Haha… actually leh… I don’t mind. But when you ask then I have to answer lah. I will want to have someone loves me and I love him. Let God works lah. I don’t know anything anymore. I also don’t want to ask. I believe God will not give me something greater than I can take.

Will you marry me?

What is marriage? This word suddenly came into my mind and I have no idea what is that all about. I wanted to get married so much since I was 20. Even though I wished that I could get married but whenever someone proposed to me I will reject without thinking much. So now, what am I looking for towards marriage? There is something that is in my mind but I don’t know how to explain. I will still say that I still want to get married but I don’t think I can accept anyone until I found myself.