What makes Chinese-CHINESE?

Hmmm... I'm not that chinese actually. I thought I am....


Please check the list to see how Chinese you or your friends really are:

There are 29 ways to know if you're Chinese. You will laugh at yourself when you read all of them.

1. You unwrap gifts very carefully, so you can save and reuse the wrapping (and especially those ribbons). - Oh well, I do unwrap very carefully but I don't reuse but dump it.

2. When there is a sale on toilet paper, you buy 100 rolls and store them in your closet or in the bedroom of an adult child who has move out. - One roll I use more than a month. 100 rolls?? err...

3. You keep a Thermos of hot water available at all times. - cold water I can keep it in the fridge but hot water I don't boil it all the time. Does this make me a chinese?

4. You save grocery bags, tin foil, and tin containers. You use the grocery bags to hold garbage. - It just fit nicely into my dustbin.

5. You hate to waste food:
(a) Even if you're totally full, if someone says they're going to throw away the leftovers on the table, you'll finish them. (Your mom will give a lecture about starving kids in Africa ).
(b) You have Tupperware in your fridge with three bites of rice or one leftover chicken wing.

6. You don't own any real Tupperware- only a cupboard full of used butcarefully rinsed margarine tubs, take out containers, and jam jars. - All also my aunty's ones.

7. You have a collection of miniature shampoo bottles that you take every time you stay in a hotel. - I... don't!!

8. You wipe your plate and utensils or wash them in a small basin of hot water before you eat every time you go to a restaurant. - What else... chinese don't wash things clean.

9 . You own a rice cooker and a slow cooker - I wished I do.

10. You wash your rice at least 2-3 times before cooking it.

11. You fight (literally) over who pays the dinner bill. - If can, don't pay better.

12. You have a teacup with a cover on it.

13. If you're under age 20, you own a really expensive walkman if you're over 20, you own a really expensive camera. - NO NO NO NO!!!!

14. You're a wok user. - A pan user now...

15. You only make long distance calls after 7pm.

16. You prefer your shrimp with the heads and legs still attached-it, means they're fresh.

17. You never call your parents just to say, ' Hi. ' - *speechless

18. If you don't live at home, when your parents call, they'll ask if you've eaten, even if it's midnight. - That's my mom.

19. Your parents tell you to boil herbs and stay indoors when you getsick. They also tell you not to eat fried foods or baked foods becausesuch food are ' heaty' (yeet hey in Cantonese).

20. You e-mail your Chinese friends at work, even though you only sit 10 feet apart. - Oh well, hahah....

21. You always cook too much.

22. You eat every last grain of rice in your bowl, but don't eat the last piece of food on the table.

23. You starve yourself before going to ' All You Can Eat ' buffet.

24. You know someone who can get you a good deal on jewelry orelectronics, computers.

25 . You own your own meat cleaver and sharpen it.

26. Your toothpaste tubes are all squeezed paper-thin.

27. You call a sausage a hotdog. - I call a sausage... sausage!! and a hotdog... hotdog!!

28. You wrap with napkins all the knives, spoons and forks of the airline that you fly on and put in your travel-bag as souvenirs

29. You never forget to take with you all the unused bath and facial tissues when you check out from the hotel because you believe that you have paid its all. - I don't think I can do that.

Now that you have read the lot, are they mostly true? Will you take thismessage and forward it to all your Chinese friends, because you willalways be proud that you're indeed a great Chinese...

Unforgetable Moments...

For your information, I never talked to my mom properly before. I'm always the one my mom cares the most and I always the one who scolded her because she doesn't know how to take care of herself. I always thought that what I did and say was right and didn't care about her feelings and how she thinks. I have my reason for doing all these. I know I shouldn't scold her and this might be one of the reason why she thinks all of us don't care about her anymore. I didn't know what should I do and how much more I could do for this family and how long more I could stand. I'm trying not to scold her and talk to her in a better manner and care about her.

I had no ways and reasons to love them for what they've given me. In my heart was all about hatred and blaming them for didn't take good care of me. But now I'm not anymore. I found that this family is lack of cares and loves included myself. I love them so much and I'm giving my love and care for them. Giving all of myself to them. I believe this family will learn to love and care too.

HOhohoHO.... I'm feeling so happy. Wondering why?? HAHaahaa... It's because I had a dinner with my family. Only my aunty, uncle, mom and myself. Though not everyone turn up that night but we truly had fun that night. Was actually going dinner with my uncle and mom but didn't know why my mom mentioned about my aunty. Although I was so tired and wanted to go home after the dinner but I decided to call her out. I think some of you know what's happening to my mom, so you will know why I called my aunty out. I wanted her to talk to my mom so that my mom would feel better. My aunty did spent a long time and tried her best to talked to my mom and I hope she'll be fine and know that all of us love her very much and don't think so much.

I never had such a dinner gathering after so many years - probably about... hmm... 7 years. It's also because of my busyness so I didn't look for them for quite some times. Will try to manage my time properly. Forgive me! It's so amazing that my mom and my aunty could sit at the same table and dinner together. Don't understand why? Ask me if you want to know because it's not convenient to publish everything here. Though it's just a normal and simple dinner to you all but to me it's the one of the greatest dinner I've ever had in my life. I felt so warm and touched at that moment. We eat, we laughed, and we talked so freely. Well, I think the best part was when I paid for the bill?? I never paid for any bills because... I'M STINGY!!! haha...

To whom shall I trust?

I’m so tired. So so so tired today. I found out something that I don’t want to know and I don’t need to know but I don’t want to mention it here. I suddenly have no more confidence in life. What am I doing? Why am I here for? Am I going on the right way? I found no answer. I don’t understand. Don’t understand why all these things could happen to me. I need to know the answer. I need to know what’s happening.

I thought I was right but actually I’m not. I was so confident but not anymore. I tried to figure out what’s happening and I didn’t really get what I want and what I supposed to get. I was offended but I didn’t really get angry. I just let it be.

To whom shall I trust? Yes, it’s God I shall trust. I have no other choices accept trusting God. Only God Himself could tell me what I’m doing now is right or wrong. I wish I could know the answer now. I don’t want and I hope I’m not wrong.

That's all for today. I don't feel like writting anymore today. I've lost my words for everything.

Peace

As I was about to start writting this, suddenly I paused and offline from the Internet and turned away from where I was. I grabbed my Bible and went out of the my room and sat in the living room as my room has so many things could easily tempt me.

I held my Bible for some times and I start thinking. Why is this "book" seems to be so strange to me? I carried It wherever I went but I didn't really have a look at it and meditate it. All the words that were so meant to me are just so strange and I forgot almost all of them. I opened the Bible as I was looking for the suitable book in the It. From the front to the back and from the back to the front. I really didn't know what I should do with the Bible.

I found myself lost my way. Where am I now? Which one is the correct way and where should I go to? Again I left my Bible and walked away. My heart was just so... painful that I couldn't even understand anything in the Bible. I prayed. And there I stopped. I'd been living in this influential world for so many years. I could easily live in it peacefully without thinking of anything.

God is peace. Wonderred how could I live in peace without God for God is peace Himself? How many of us could ever live a life like this? Without peace and a good relationship with God? I can't. But what for saying "I can't" without doing anything about it? God let me choose whether to follow Him or not. I can easily proclaim "I'm a Christian and I love God" proudly. But what have I actually done for Him and how much I've done for Him? He has shown His love to us through the death of Christ. But we could easily forget... hhmm... not forget... we could actually don't care about it.

Maybe it's because He's already died for us 2000 years ago and it was 2000 years ago. I thought of enjoying my life whether I'm a christian or not. After I came to Christ, I found out that there are a lot of things that I need to let go even though I didn't want to. I had to put aside a lot of things that I loved. I stopped doing all the things that I can't do like what I did before.

He, a God that has never forsaken me, has been patiently waiting for me to come back to Him. Why am I still want to waste my time doing something that's not worth doing? I have not much time left. 10 year or 20 years are not enough for me to prepare before I could go to heaven.

What a day!!!!

Is there any interesting topic to talk about? Oh well, it had been kind of, a tough day for me today. As usual I went out at 6.50am to warm up my car before I went for work. The sky was so dark. Darker than usual. I cleared my car as I was going to fetch my beloved youths to a youth service at Revival Centre today. I noticed that I opened the fuel tank cover instead of the boot first. After clearing everything, I went for 'si hum' (SHELL) and I found out that I didn't close the fuel tank just now. What if I wasn't going for fuel? I don't think I will stop half way in the middle of the highway to close the cover. Whatever it is... The petrol wouldn't leak anyways.

I was so sleepy as I slept at 1.30am and woke up at 6.00am this morning, driving in the dark, suddenly rained and the traffic was unusual. I was about to fall asleep as I drove everage less than 60km/h through out the whole journey on the MRR2. My eye lids were closing half way. My car was going slower and slower and I couldn't drive as I was. It shaken everytime I changed gear. I felt like vomit though I was the driver. How I wished I could reach my office as soon as possible. Didn't want to drive anymore. Finally I've reached and had a cup of coffee and 4.30pm went off.

Supposed to reach my youth's house at 5.30pm or earlier. Wondered what's in my mind, I went to the wrong way and drove another 10km. Arrggg!!! I couldn't get myself to drive properly through out the whole journey. Finally reached the church and rested a while and had my dinner. Oh man... got to drive again. After the service in Revival Centre, we went for mamak session. After that, aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggg!!!!!! I went to the wrong way and drove for another 10km to send my youth home. I've travelled more than 100km today. What a day I had today. 100km was about to reach Seremban or Malacca. I'm not going to drive tomorrow. Leave me alone at home!!

*Oops!! Should be today not tomorrow.

Free^Lunch

Arrgg!! Free lunch... What would you think of when people mention 'free lunch'? Haha... It's free and I did enjoyed very much. Do you know that I haven't been paying a cent for my lunch since my first day of work? Today was my 8th day having free lunch of 8 days of work. All of my colleagues are treating me lunch for six days. The other two days there're trainings with lunch provided so we grabbed some from there.

I had Italian, Malay, Chinese food through the two weeks. I found myself ate a lot and I dont feel comfortable with it. I don't like eating too much as I dont enjoy eating! I walked up and down the stairs with my colleague after eating so much. Everyday we wished that we won't be eating so much for our lunch. But we didn't. Even if we don't want to eat, the food will automatically come to us.

Remembered we just came back from lunch and there was a training today. They had tea-time break. We stood at my place and read the newspapers for 10-15 minutes because we're just too full. When we sat down and do our own stuff, suddenly a malay boy came to my colleague beside me with a brownish paper bag. You know what? It's pisang goreng!! I emailed my the other colleague "can you smell that? It's pisang goreng!". So tempting. We tried to concentrate on what we're doing without looking anywhere. Amazing!! Temptation walked to our place and I took one. It's not because I really wanted to eat it but she asked me to eat for THREE times. I can say another "NO"? I didn't. No manners mah...

Can imagine I could have so much free food here? Was that tempting enough? Very fattening lerr... I wish that I won't be eating too much. Friends! Don't angry lah. I know you guys are getting angry with me because you think you're not as thin as me. To be frank, I really don't want to grow fatter. I know I supposed to enjoy and feel blessed with so much free food. But... Don't want lah... Too full lah...

secRe-tary

Don't know how it feels for being a secretary. All the while I was an admin support. When I came to this job - oh well, a secretary. I also have been known as a P.A. in my office. P.A... Personal Assistant wo... I've never worked in this area before. For your information, I don't know anything about it. Does it mean that I need to keep all the secrets for my boss? I need to take care on every movements and all stuff for my boss? I really have no idea about it.

Now I start feeling afraid of being a P.A. In everything, I have to take the responsibility. I found myself an important person - maybe starting from next week or next month? I don't know. During interview session, my boss had told me about my job description. Without thinking much and he's giving me such a privilege to work for him, I accepted this job.

Few days before I started working here, I ever thought of decline this job. I regretted it at all. I need to travel so far to be a P.A. - a position with so much burdens and no experience at all. Even until today, I have no idea what I should do. Everything is just so secrecy. The only one that I need to report to is my boss and my boss ever. Arrgg!!
Can anyone tell me what a P.A. should do?

Hmm... suddenly something prompt into my mind and I want to say it out. I've once been told that I can't be a P.A. because I don't even know what a P.A. shoud do. I laughed out loud and responded confidently "you will know whether I can be a P.A. or not" because that would be my career and I will learn. This will be my first stage of learning to be a P.A. and for life I will be a P.A. Haha... P.A to my boss and also to my "boss".
It's such a big change in my life this year. Well, I really wanted a big change though.

It's all about myself...

This should be posted few days ago. I kept a lot of drafts here. I just couldn't find myself a reason for putting them on blog. I came to this friend and said "Tell me what to write"!! And I got this "You need to know what's the purpose of your blog"!

Well, all the drafts that I've kept for so many days are all about myself. I think this is what a blog for? Yes, it is. I should write more about myself.

Who is doing it better??

I was asked by Leon "Do you compare yourself to others a lot"? The answer was "Yes, I do compare and I feel so discourage". I wanted to be as successful as the others do. I wished I could do even better too.

One of my wish is I could sing well. I love to sing. I could memorise a song and sing it within 2-5 hours. When I came to serve in P&W ministry, I sang more. Everyday I'll listen to many songs so that I could sing without looking at the lyrics. I thought I could sing even better because I did a lot of practices. You'll never know that after getting myself more involved in this ministry, I tend to compare myself to the others. No doubt they're many people could sing better than I do but why I still want to compare myself to the others?

I used to sing while working (all my colleagues knew about this), walking, before I sleep, and even in the washroom. Know what's happened to me after that? I don't sing much as before. I don't listen to songs as before. I'd even stopped singing for a long time. I tried my best with all kinds of "reasons" so that I don't have to go for P&W practices. I've struggled and I told some of my friends, "I just couldn't get myself to sing". I wanted to stop serving in this ministry so that I don't have to sing and don't need to give so many "reasons" for not going and compare myself with other people.

It's not because I don't love to sing anymore. I still love to sing but it's not as before anymore. Eventually I found myself sing very badly. I just couldn't open up my mouth and sing. Voiceless! I forced myself and I felt the pain and eventually, my voice's changed. I knew I've strained my voice. I wanted to cry but I didn't.
Why do I want to compare myself to the others and hurt myself so much? I'm hurting myself...

Just wait...

This is just so meaningful to me... Wanted to have a look at it but it turned out something meaningful to me... What we had to do is just wait, just wait... patiently... and see... what you will get in the future would be something great if we just wait...


When life seems impossible
When everything falls down
Just wait, Just wait

When everything seems unfair
When life seems so unkind
Just wait, Just wait

When you feel like there’s no tomorrow
When your world’s just filled with sorrow
Just wait, Just wait

Just wait upon the Lord
Leave it all and just wait
He will come in His mighty pow’r
He make it all straight
If we just wait….


*by Leon Lim

God's great planning^^~~

I've finally started to work in ING Insurance. Starting my new life with a new career, new environment, with new colleagues and boss. My boss is a christian also. He's the one who's given me this chance to work in this company with no fear. Had been praying for all these and God had finally answered my prayer. I believe he could be the greatest boss I've ever had.

Wow... This time I want to tell you about my new colleague. We're slightly introduced by our boss even before we met. We started to work in ING on the same day. So coincident that we sat next to each other during reporting period. We're so happy that we could have our tea break at 10.15am and also 3.15pm. We had our orientation together. We went from 15th floor to 3rd floor and 3rd floor to 15 floor... up and down for 7-8 hours. We missed out all the tea breaks together. We're so fatigue and so thirsty. After many hours, we finally could have some time and sat down have a drink.

Though we're so tired but we could just so easily clicked to each other and started to know each other more and more. After all the chatting, wow! It's another coincident. We're from the same primary and secondary school. We're both christian too. I've never thought of having a christian colleague and could be so close to each other. Feeling so good to have her in the same company with me. We'll come to each other whenever we want to do something or when we've nothing to do. But of course not so frequently. I was asked to go for bible study together with her. We could share our experiences with God. Believe that we would have unending stories to share about God's great planning for us. That's what I've been waiting for. Could you imagine how great is it?

We're so good and so close until all the colleagues even our boss thougth we knew each other for a long time but actually we're not. Haha... So great! Everything just so well planned for me in this new place that's full of strangers. It's also a place where I could learn more things. Know more about God. Praise the Lord!!


p/s: Mei Sheen, great to have you as a colleague and also a sister in Christ. Continue walking in the light of God. God bless you...

say NO if you're not...

Why do we sleep in church,
But stay awake through a 2 hour movie?

Why can wake up 2:00am to watch football
But can't wake up on Sunday early enough for church?

Why is it so hard to talk about God,
but so easy to talk about sex?

Why are we so bored when we look at aChristian magazine,
but find it easy to read Magazine?

Why is it so easy to ignore a Godly emails,
Yet we repost the nasty ones?

Why are churches getting smaller,
But bars and clubs are growing?

Think about it, are you going to repost this?
Are you going to ignore it, cause youthink you'll get laughed at?



*re-posting this isn't something hard to do.
but what we're actually doing in our lives... think about it.

a boyfriend or a husband?

I want a husband. I just can't continue choosing. It's just so crazy for me. I really need someone who could love me and I will love him whole-heartedly. Loving unconditionally with no other expectations and judging each other? Do I need to improve myself and make myself suit him? Will I care how other people think of me if I be with someone they think we're not compatible? Loving me just as I am? Just that simple?

Now, am I prepared to be someone's wife? As someone's girlfriend, I need to show him love and care. As a wife, I shall respect him and be submissive to him as my husband and also as a head of the family. I would clean the house, make him breakfast, lunch and dinner or even a cup of tea, massage for him when he's fatigue and will be a support to him in carrying all the burdens in the family. Sounded so much like being a personal assistant? Well, it's not much difference.

For me, I need a husband that is willing to accept me for knowing nothing and guide me to learn so that I could see more things that I haven't seen before. Love me! A husband that would humble himself before me as a head of the family and would help me in doing all the house work. So simple? Yes, all I want is just so simple. But it's also more than just doing all the routines together, making him a cup of tea or hugging me to show each other's love.

So now I don't need to think of how should I improve myself just to suit him. We're all equal before God. I'm made specifically in God's plan and I should be thankful.

Life begins at twenty-three

I'm a little baby girl that wants to do a lot of things for God. I'm also another simple and normal person with little of faith and confidence in me. A happy girl in front of many people and friends but actually I'm not. I'm a girl that hiding a lof of things in my heart. Some said, I'm a superactive person and talks a lot but actually I'm just hiding everything behind my smiles and laughters. A person that loves to sing in mandarin, cantonese, english and also malay. A malay educated girl but loves singing chinese songs. Singing can just set me free. Lyrics help me to think but must be very careful and singing the right songs.


Start thinking about myself. This life that begins at the age of 23. Start thinking of how to live my life. Thinking about my future. I can't be a small kid anymore. I need to learn to be an adult with tons of responsibilities in life. With more and more expectations from friends, family and even myself. In some of their point of views, I shouldn't be doing anything wrong.

My family said, 'You're the eldest sister in the family. You have to show them how to do things right'. I thought everyone does mistakes? Why can't I do wrong? I'm also a 'superwoman' to my family. When there is any sickness, anything's not going fine, or whatever unsatisfied I need to be there for them and resolve everything for them. I can't say 'NO' to them or they will say, 'you're so irresponsible'. What the!! I need to be tough all the time. I tried to cry but it's just useless. Someone told me not to cry and must be tough like her. She has never cries she said. I cried to God and He asked me to be patient and lay everything unto Him and He'll lead me through. Believing that He's the only One could help me and be there for me whenever I needed someone to be there for me.

Life is just so interesting at times. It will also turn into something everyone will want to end his life and stops doing anything anymore. I just keep telling myself... NO!! Praying to God that He could set me free from all these. By faith, I could stand until today.